Monday, November 18, 2013

Patterns, processes, and a PhD

Written by spockette
I am an autistic adult woman. I see patterns, hear music perfectly in my head, and notice things others don’t. I commune with cats, and am intensely loyal to those I grow to trust.

I almost did not graduate from high school, and there were not high hopes for my success. My parents believed in me, though. Because of their support, and the willingness of others to accept me for who I am, I have made it to where I am today. I’m nearly 30 and am pursuing a PhD in a field which suits my natural talents. I still have trouble turning in assignments. I think part of this is because I don’t know where to start.
I am curious, and love learning and ideas. I’m not afraid to try learning new things—it took me a while to figure it out, but I now use my love of learning to expose myself to new people. Intramural clubs have provided me a place where there are lots of other really awkward people who are also new to learning something.

I took down a blog several years ago because I was not comfortable, and attacked by people who didn’t understand. I’m still here, and I’ve grown. If you have an autistic child, or know someone on spectrum, celebrate the way they grow with them, please. It’s unique and beautiful.


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